This blog is going to be about my mind and thoughts through depression, anxiety, and whatever else ails my mental. I have over the past year and a half suffered from rebounding depression and anxiety. I once went through a psychotic episode which changed my life forever. I will definitely talk about that in a separate post.
I'm here to first start off by saying that this blog isn't here to make you sad or to feel sorry for me/anyone else. I just want to let people into the mind of someone who smiles, laughs, and dances around people but on the inside continues to drown in her thoughts. Everyday I'm fighting between living and dying. I am a religious person, so I'm sure that's why I haven't harmed myself farther than I have. But everyday, is a struggle and lately, I am losing myself more and more. My husband says I have not been the same over the past few days... I have not notice. Maybe a little more angry, but I have not really noticed much difference...
*Sigh*
I ask myself what is wrong with me. I have no right to be upset and depressed about the life I have. I go to college, I work, I'm married, living on my own, and I'm only 20. I have come so far in the past year, that I should be grateful...and I am...trust me...I am more than grateful, but I still hate myself and I hate my life. Maybe someone else deserves my life. Maybe they can do much better with it than I can. I must exit this post before I share too much too early and cause my readers to become bored with my thoughts. Farewell till next time.
Thank you for reading. XOXO
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