Make it stop...

My head is pounding. It won't stop. Please make it stop. Please... I want to non stop cry over this. Over us. I don't know what to do. More pounding. It hurts so bad. What is going on with me?! Why is my body failing. Oh God, please not now. I'm starting to feel good about myself. I'm starting to feel strong  again despite not being strong emotionally. 

He's talking about me to his friends. I know it. He's telling them how horrible I am as a person. I'm not that bad, I promise. I mess up from time to time but I have a good heart I promise that I do. I can hear him, I know it. Now I have to look at people who look at me differently. I'll stay in my room forever. I'll never leave. Only to go to work and go to school. I'll show them. I'll show them how great of a person I really am. 

Seriously... My head hurts so badly. I want to die to make the pain go away. I can't make it work... I can't make anything work. I screw up a few times and I'm deemed that person forever... I wish I had a chance to start EVERYTHING over. I would do it 10x better. I have to go...I have to lay down and escape somehow. Maybe I can sleep and never look back...