I'm Back...

       I know I haven't written in a very long time. I felt as if no one cared, but I saw a comment on a post from long ago and they reached out. It really means the world to me that they reached out. They were generally concerned about what I was going though. I can definitely tell you that I was lonely during that dark time. It's time for an update on my mental health!



      After my last post, things were getting a bit better, until a serious life event happened and I became severally depressed. This was during the summer of 2016. I went to therapy and for the first time ever, I actually sought out medical help. I was put on an antidepressant (Bupropion). To me, it didn't work, I stopped taking it, and I didn't go back for anything else. I was even able to complete therapy. Jumping forward to December of 2016, it was the end of the semester, things were going amazing. All of a sudden, I was hit with depression. I quit my job and barely passed my finals. I stopped talking to everyone and became so isolated I knew I need to get help once again.

     I decided to go back to therapy once I could not go a day without killing myself. I eventually went back to the same nurse practitioner who prescribes my medicine. I was put on Zoloft and Trazodone. WHAT A RELIEF! I can't say that I'm 100% back to where I was but I'm better now than I was in December. I'm still struggling with the urges to kill and hurt myself....I ended up cutting my arm severely. It is healing...but ever so slowly.

     Lately, things have been rocky. My husband tried to kill himself and things seem a bit deem. In separate post, I will write about my experiences on the medication and my husband's attempted suicide. That's it for this post. Unti next time!

Thank you for reading! XOXO

                                8 days after self harm :(